Long Time, No See!!

It’s been precisely 11 months since my last post and it feels extremely good to know that my writing was missed!  :D Mr/Miss Anonymous, whoever you are, you have made my day, no wait, u have made my month! Thanks!!

My BFF recently started blogging and she wrote a post about us and our very bitchy, but bestest friendship as a gift for my 24th birthday. Yes, i know its the thought that counts and that such a gift is priceless (*grumble*grumble*) You can read her post and wish you had a friend like me here: http://wordsnwisdom.wordpress.com/2011/10/03/the-word-bitch/ While you are at it, check out her other posts too, she is an awesome writer. No, she did not pay or bribe me into doing this. Why on earth would anyone even think that??

So updates for the last 11 months,

1.   

  I   1. I quit my job (finally)

gI  2. I got pink streaks :D which in turn changed into red, burgundy, brown, blonde and finally a very weird shade of yellow.

·     3. Had a small stint with baking which took off pretty well and I used to cater for office parties (super proud smile)

·      4.  Brother had a baby boy. Picture posted below and even though I love him to bits, it is the only pic you will see of him. I have no intention of turning this into a baby blog.

·      5. Yet to go on the Dubai trip I have planned since October 2010

·       6.As unbelievable as it might sound, Trivandrum was finally turning out to be a lot of fun and then I left 

Yeah, that is pretty much it...  And oh yeah, I am getting MARRIED!

Gulp! Ok I am myself still getting used to it... So if you see some freaking out happening here, please consider it as PMS – Pre-Marriage-Syndrome, a term I thought I coined myself, only to Google and find out many articles about it. Damn it!

A very small paragraph about the very BIG person in my life, my Fiancée (gulp!) 

24th September 2011, a lovely, windy, make you wanna fall in love and get married kinds Saturday evening. In the very romantic setting of my living room, over crowded with both our relatives, I saw him. Our eyes met and I smiled my most innocent charming smile ever. The poor thing fell for it and thus we are getting married on January 15th 2012. Anyone reading this please feel free to come and join us!

Right now, things are going soo good (touching wood with a neck-deep-in-love smile)  and he seems like a dream come true, that it almost makes me wanna shake him and ask “where were you all these years??”  How long things will remain this way, we shall find out soon!!

Write a song

It is a strange distress,

An excruciating pain,

I can feel it all over me

Yet there are no injuries to be seen.

Is this what they call heartbreak?

If it is... It’s alright

It’s alright…

If your heart is breaking like mine...

Write a song,

Write a song,

If you heart is breaking like mine…

Write a song, like I did…

Where do we go from here?

I am yet to figure it out.

But since you are leaving,

Do us both a favour.

Take this pain with you,

You deserve it more than I do.

If you heart is breaking like mine...

Write a song,

Write a song,

If your heart is breaking like mine…

Write a song, like I did…

It’s alright... it’s alright…

Soon it will be alright.

Bored!

One of the basic human pattern is that whenever we have too much of anything we get bored with it. It might be something that we would have wanted all of life, but still once the initial infatuation wears off, we start getting bored.  Take the case of this guy I met recently, ummm, let’s call him Mr. XYZ.

Mr. XYZ used to work in the marketing department of a condom company (yes, I finally met someone who works in a company that makes condoms!!) Now, one of the things Mr. XYZ had to do daily as a part of his job was to pick out models for their ad campaigns and website shoots. Everyday these models would put on their best lingerie and pose for him! Now would you believe me if I told you that he got bored of this job and quit?? Yea... he quit... He actually did!  This is like a job most guys would actually kill for!! Now I don’t know if the boredom was induced because of the repetitions or because he pretty much couldn’t do anything else except see!! :D

So it got me thinking, is there anything in this world that can keep us interested??  Too much of love, we get bored.. Too much of TV, we get bored.. Too much of food, fat and bored..  Too much time with one person, bored. . The only thing I can think of is money.. I am yet to have too much of money to find out if I’ll be bored or not. But I guess even that will wear out eventually once we realize it’s just a piece of paper.. now if any of my friends are having that realization right now and wants to get rid of this extra papers lying around, message me and I will send you my account number! J

Me!

I am life...

Rolled into one

I can be a bitch

Or I can be your lover

I can be as pure as vanilla

Or I can be your sinfully delighted chocolate

I can be your dream come true

Or I can be your personal hell

I can make you the happiest person on earth

Or I can rip your heart right out

I can be the smiling angel you never wanna let go

Or I can be the devil you wish you never met

I can be numb

Or I can be revitalized

I can stand by you

Or I can walk right out

I can be your pain killer

Or I can be the cancer that is eating you alive

I can be constant

Or I can cede away

Whatever it is...

I am me

Love me for what I am

Or just let it be

Leaving Tonight

Doesn’t matter where you take this
It’s never going where I want it.
So someone has to go
Make it me, coz I am leaving tonight.


We were always meant to say good bye
Isn’t that the first thing you told me that night?
But I want you to know,
I always thought you would be wrong.
So someone has to go now,
Make it me, coz I am leaving tonight.


There is no way I can take this anymore
Close my eyes and pretend it’s alright.
How long will I keep fooling myself?
It’s time we let go
So someone has to go
Make it me, coz I am leaving tonight.


You have places to go
So I want you to know
I love you enough to let you go
Even though my heart says no.
Yeah, I know someone has to go,
Make it me, coz I am leaving tonight.

Keep your friends close but your enemies closer

Keep your friends close but your enemies closer. This old proverb is very true, and not just for the most obvious reason. My boyfriend has, or rather had, this particular ‘friend’ he used to hang out with at one point of time. Somehow, I had a big problem with this ‘friend’. The fact that she was a girl might have had something to do with it and him talking about her and their time together everyday dint seem to help either!! Anyway, this girl never struck me right and soon our arguments started being centred on her. Deciding something had to be done about this situation, I played the dirtiest card in the pack, “either her or me”. Naturally he picked me (he wouldn’t have seen the light of the day otherwise). Now, I wasn’t particularly proud of what I did, but things cooled down and soon we found other things to fight over. I knew he hadn’t stopped talking to her completely but, although a bit annoyed, I just let it be. Like most guys, his new found friend was soon passé once work came into picture. Something I should have realized earlier, knowing how involved he can be in with work. It is to an extent that, sometimes I think he likes working more than spending time with me!! And that is when the realization of how dumb I had been struck me. Had I been patient, he would have grown out of the phase himself. Now not only did I waste that once-in-a-lifetime card over something like this, I also gave him a chance to say “I did that for you”. He rarely says it, but when he does, it sure hurts. If I had just let it be, I would have got what I wanted, come out of this whole thing clean and more than anything, I would still have had my card. Damn it! I have learnt my lesson and have become a lot wiser - Keep your friends close but your enemies closer. Okay now can my friends can move over coz I need a lot of space to accommodate all these people??!

If you want.. ASK!

Over the past few weeks, I have been talking nonstop about how long it’s taking me to download a sitcom and how much easier it would be if I could just buy the CDs, to my boyfriend. I even mentioned it to him, that there is a ‘buy 1 get 1 free’ offer at this particular shop, so I could get two seasons for the price of one. The funny part is, even after the innumerable times I must have mentioned this to him, it just somehow never stuck on. This morning we were at the same store shopping for him. Once done with that, he asked me if I wanted to get something. I don’t think my brain must have worked this fast ever, but I swear it came up with at least 1000 things in the next 10 seconds that I could possibly (or maybe never) want. But I smiled and said what any person in my place would say.. “Nothing”. Him: “Are you sure baby?” Me: “Yes.. Absolutely!”. This question was repeated in various forms till he understood nothing else will come out of me.

What I don’t understand is how he could not think about the CD and the sitcom. For heaven’s sake, I have been going on and on about it for days now. I know men have a very short attention span and that their minds close down few seconds into the conversation, unless you are talking about sex or cars (The latter doesn’t work in my guy’s case though) but this is unbelievable. So I started wondering if it is only girls who possess this remarkable ability to pick out and remember stuff like this. I wasn’t sure if I could generalise it to the ladies yet, so I sat down and analyzed few of my close girl friends. My best friend and I were all over town, the whole of last month looking for a watch for my guy. She used to describe our daily activities to her fiancé and during one such conversation, he mentioned that he doesn’t like leather straps and square dials. The next day she told me this and also added “I should keep that in mind”. I know for a fact that even 50 years down the lane, she will never get him a square dial. Another time, he had asked her to remind him to buy a new belt next time he goes out. The next thing I know, we are shopping for belts!!

Well actually to think of it, most of my girl friends are like this. Most, not all! A close friend of mine once told me that her boyfriend has a romantic quotient of a soap dish. This girl is someone who is always looking out for ways to make her guy happy and as for the guy, well, I am not commenting on that. Now I don’t mean to sound like a feminist here, but I am yet to meet a guy who does stuff like this. I mean I have heard guys talk about themselves, how they keep doing this and that for some girl. But for some reason, I haven’t heard it from a girl.

Of course, men are romantic. There are these bouts of romance that blossom every now and then. But a guy who is consistently romantic? I am yet to meet. So there, this is one more among the many super human qualities a girl possesses when she is in love. The others include, but are not limited to an immeasurable capacity to love & understand, empathize and patience, and by patience I mean a lot of it!!

Am I complaining? No, of course not! I love spoiling my boyfriend and in fact, lately I am beginning to think that I am enjoying it more than he does. So the whole point of writing this article? Just pointing out minor differences in the thinking pattern between men and women. And as for getting what I want, I guess I’ll have to just work on my ability to mumble something other than nothing the next time he asks me!